Mad Caddies last breath

Mad Caddies
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Last Breath
Still awake on a winters day
skies are grey and its cold
smoke signals from my last cigarette
lets me know that its finally getting old
everybody hates me for the night before
the man you saw wasn't me
and now there's blood upon the bathroom floor
i've got a disease
Wait a while all i need is a friend
C'mon stay a while won't you please understand
I'm fucked up with nothing ahead but the end
I know that i'll never get sober
And i'm fed up with this miserable life after death
I know that i've taken my last breath
Memories of how it used to be
painted thick on my walls
a cold illusion's pumping through my veins
feel them there but i didn't hear them call
washed away all my darkest fears
shoved them down to my soul
i keep them aged like a vintage wine
i'm sure they'll come out when they've ready to go