Odina father

A door is wide open
Just to blind you
The words have been spoken
Without thinking them through
I ask him why
What did I do wrong?
He may be up high
But I've been waiting for too long
I called you Father
But you didn't bother
To say my name
And forgive my shame
Forgive my shame
Everything clashes
Please pull me through
Once I'm back to ashes
Will I meet you?