Off With Their Heads why can t i let you go

The time is never right
And I don't see it in my line of sight
I keep on saying everything's all right
But then I wake up in the middle of the night
And I wish that I could let you go
It'll never be the same
And I wish I could say that I liked the change
I wish I could take it back
But dealing with pride is a skill I lack
And I wish that I could let you go
There's nothing I can do that would change it
And now our lives are re-arranged
I can't help that I think about you all the time
And I can't get you out of my mind
Would someone help me shed some light
On why you died and why I'm still alive?