OMEN NOISE i need help

Cut me down
Separate
Open up inside my soul
Try to figure out what's going on
I'm scared
What can you see?
Don't lie to me, I need to know
What is this inside my own
I'm getting mad at myself
Cause now I'm losing control
My heart is beating, leave me alone
And run away, away
I try so hard to find an answer but it's crazy
With my surroundings turning into blurry faces
It's fucked up, it's crucial
Cause green is the sky
Transforming myself into a dangerous gun
I try again and now there's nothing that can change this
I think it's part cause I was born with this end
Should I give up or give it a chance
Just to discover what's gonna be next
Out of control
Out of control
Everyday I try really hard to find an answer but it's getting me crazy
Everything that surrounds me get blurry
And I can't
It's fucked up
It's kinda crucial
I don't really know if I should take it out of me
Maybe I should give it chance to discover what this is
Or maybe I should give up now
If something goes wrong
I guess it's gonna be the death of me
Leave me out there cause I can't with myself
Cause I can't with myself
Cause I can't with myself
Leave me out there cause I can't with myself
Cause I can't with myself
Cause I can't with myself
Cause I can't with myself