Pageant Boys fountain

I was maybe distant; never hard to reach
The way you tell it I was overseas
It's not like I wasn't there
You say you miss me; wanna talk about it
My heart is empty; my head's so crowded
I dunno if I still care
You strike a fist into the grave
You claw the dirt and call my name
You never knew which way to fall
Am I the crutch you're leaning on
Take all your pennies up out my fountain
Go find another for you to drown in
I never thought that this would last
Came with best intentions and left with nothing
I need someone I can practice love with
What I wouldn't give for another chance
You strike a fist into the grave
You claw the dirt and call my name
You never knew which way to fall
Am I the crutch you're leaning on
If you call out
With my name on your tongue, well, I'm not coming
I wasted two good years on you and I'm still running
So who's left to lean since I'm gone and I'm gone
Yeah, who's gonna love you when I don't love you
You strike a fist into the grave
You claw the dirt and call my name
You never knew which way to fall
Am I the crutch you're leaning o