Punch stay afloat

Outside of my control.
Outside of myself.
Your problems are not my own.
But old habits die hard.
Days of coming home to the unknown left a mark.
Trying to hold it all together was too much responsibility.
This guilt is all I've known.
I bet if you attach a tug boat to a sinking ship they are both going down.
It's hard enough to stay afloat alone.