It's five AM as I approach the bridge
In envy of old friends who still sleep in
They were jaded then and they're jaded now
Climbing social trees as i fell out
Rich kids in bad parts of town
A social scene in which they now have drown
It's no way to live
Sitting on the fence asking what if
I dwell on times we had before the 21
I grew up and you're all still always drunk
If I never got shot out I wonder where I'd be
Still cashing out to drink my self esteem
I get caught up but I know it's no way to live
Another sheltered Jersey kid moves across the bridge
I try to wake I try to wake
Obsession overtakes my state
I'm standing up but stuck in place
Standing still in dreams that I should chase
I'm sorry I Try to bring you down when i see myself as less
I know you're not so bad and I'm not quite the best
I realize now that we will never be the same
I was wired all wrong and just want someone to blame
It'll only be just one until I need one more
Back to habits I can't handle or afford
And honestly I just envy the freedoms that I lost
When I crossed the unseen lines I can't uncross