such a secret held so long from me and for me
a deviant you saw yourself then
sacrilege and ashamed
but you were young
a little girl smooth skin and anxious
just like me
i should have known
just like me
even you slipped once or twice
in his arms in his head
warm and needed
you let him touch you where you’d never been
the girls wowed at the sparkle stone on your hand
and your mother never saw you as you will never see me then
and a lifetime later in the basement i find pictures
beneath nothing just on top like a giant diamond ring
just like me
i should have known
just like me
even you slipped once or twice
in his arms in his head
warm and needed
you let him touch you where you’d never been
did he hurt you
did he disappear
am i your only
and if i ask you would it all come back again
am i your only
and i do trembling and prefacing
waiting for the hammer
ready for the meltdown
but you turn with a smile and no surprise
you say mistakes happen at eighteen
and i know just what you mean
just like me
i should have known
just like me
even you slipped once or twice
in his arms in his head
warm and needed
you let him touch you where you’d never been
someday I’ll have my own secret
someday I’ll have my own secret too
someday I’ll have my own secret
someday I’ll have my own secret just like you do