Ritual better by now

I close my eyes and count to ten
I've made mistakes I know I'll make again
I write messages I'll never send
I'm not okay but if you want it I'll pretend
It's all good, I'm not scared and I'll hold on
But you said, I'd be better by now
All my friends, said I'd be better by now
But who cares? 'Cause I'm not better by now, no
I'm not better by now
And you said I'd be better by now
All my friends, said I'd be better by now
But who cares? 'Cause I'm not better by now, no
I'm not better by now
Another 4 AM my battery is low
And I still miss you checking that I got home
Leave the lights on when I sleep alone
And I know I should but I just can't let go
It's no good, I'm still scared, wish I was strong
But you said, I'd be better by now
All my friends, said I'd be better by now
But who cares? 'Cause I'm not better by now, no
I'm not better by now
And you said I'd be better by now
All my friends, said I'd be better by now
But who cares? 'Cause I'm not better by now, no
I'm not better by now