Shire Boy Flighter how much

Everyday like a machine I wake up, automatically put on make-up
That kind of life has grown familiar to me,
since when have I been so satisfied with myself?
did I, after achieving my dream, indulge in it?
To live comfortably, appropriately, i swallowed the flames that had welled up to my throat
That's right i'm quite disgusted with myself as well, the sharp knife has dulled
forming the wrinkles of my twenty year old self, i was afraid of such changes
If somebody could look inside my head, they'd probably mock me
smirking at the me who's lost his path, I can I can hear my old friends laughin
Hey, but I just wanted to show what I got
All I ever wanted to do was rap, you said I'm a puppet, fuck I'm not
There's too many of these countless, infinite thoughts in my head
Now I'll put myself aside and wait for the endless waves of negativity
Yeah I'm a monster, once you become a monster you can no longer be a person
I can no longer be a human like the likes of you all,
even if that's the very reason why people curse me
Whether I'm an artist, or an idol I don't give a fuck this is my life
Whether it's porridge or gruel, this is the meal I've prepared for myself
Don't think about it too much too much too much
There's no need for us to rush it through
Don't think about it too much too much too much
This is more than just a new lust for you
The me who could only see deserts and seas is now looking up at the universe
The small child who thought the tiny studio was the whole world is only just peering outside
I thought it was a real, got no time to chill, no time nobody to get healed
Too many stars, too many dreams, the reality is in front of these things i'm just a speck of dust
Once i realized that the only thing i could do was more severely lock myself in
Tamper back my fury and press it down, more strongly hide myself away
Yeah I'm a fucking monster young idol fans hate me cuz Imma fucking monster
Hiphop fans hate me too cuz I'm a fucking idol rapper who can't come to their concert
Yeah right? you're happy now right? so how you doin bitches
I'm earning a lot of fucking money fine thank you and you bitches
Every interview I said to them, go find your happiness
but lately I get confused sometimes, whether i've found my own happiness
The fact that I'm making the music I want to make, saying the things I want to say
This is the moment i've been waiting for, now facing the dream i so desperately wanted
I definitely achieved my dream, but after the dream I find myself hesitating
with too many thoughts; i just showed the me that's hungry for something
Don't think about it too much too much too much too much
There's no need for us to rush it through
Don't think about it too much too much too much too much
This is more than just a new lust for you
Don't think about it too much too much too much too much
Theres no need for us to rush it through
Don't think about it too much too much too much too much
This is more than just a new lust for you
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Whatever it is