Sinheresy without a reason

Wide awake I'm staring in the dark
And I tear my thoughts apart
But not a single thing will change
For I know and I've known from the start
That what pushed me hard so far
Was the worst of all mistakes
Why do I continue this fight
Without a reason?
I feel like I'm losing my mind
Closed in a prison of lies
Many times I tried to explain
But I knew I couldn't be heard
I was dumb and you were deaf
I choked my will to please your blame
I put myself in chains
Heavier, heavier day after day
Why do I continue this fight
Without a reason?
I feel like I'm losing my mind
Closed in a prison
Why do I continue this fight
Without a reason?
I feel like I'm losing my mind
Closed in a prison of lies
Without a reason
Without a reason