Soundings jaded

Where were you?
Where were you when I fell straight to the fucking depths?
Through darkness and self loathing, I crumble, I crawl, I can't feel.
Through darkness and self loathing, I crumble, I crawl, I can't feel a thing at all.
You meant everything!
I'm plagued with your memory, and terrified to speak your name.
Don't try to seek shelter in my arms, because I won't be there to catch you when you fall.
Because you were never really there for me.
I see you in my dreams and I wish that I could wake.
Recurring nightmare, but you look so beautiful as those eyes seal my fate.
You meant everything to me.
I'm plagued with your memory, and terrified to speak your name.
Don't try to seek shelter in my arms, because I won't be there to catch you when you fall.
Because you were never really there for me
Where were you?
Where were you when I fell straight to the fucking depths?
My constitutions defeated, my will drained and depleted
Where were you?
Where were you?
When I fell
Where were you when I fell straight to the depths?