Steady Holiday more than one way

help me I'm a superstar
but narrowly I've missed the mark
drifting, fading, no regard
I've slipped into a cycle
help me please I've come so close
I'm older now, been down that road
but something keeps me in it's hold
I've slipped into a cycle
show me all the trouble that you find
show me how to thrive and take your time
because I know it's more than just a phase
it's written in my name
I want someone to blame
but I know it's more than just today
it's a problem that I face
I want someone to blame
show me all the awfulness that hides in me
I've been living in a toxic dream
show me all the love that I so desperately need
cause all in all I'm ordinary
it's strange how sun and death move together
it's strange how much I want this mood to linger