I hope you'll understand
That the end that I'm coming to
Is filled up with thoughts of release
I hope you'll understand
That the pages enclosed for you
Have barely begun to take shape
I hope you'll understand
Oh it would kill me if misconstrued
The terms
The rules
The love
The bruise
Of all the things I never said
What have I chosen to do?
What have I put you through?
Looking for something to look forward to
I'm no utopian
But I can get up again
Over and over again
For you I see a reason
To stare way up at the Sun
And to breathe the smoke and the fire
I wonder where you will be
In the morning or in the evening
Probably putting me out
Of your mind
What have I chosen to do?
What have I put you through?
Looking for a new way to be with you
Wait for the vision there
Blowing in smoky air
Talk to the things you see
I know you won't lose your mind
But you better leave it behind
And go back later to look
I'm in here with you waiting
For what you are creating
Just try to forget that I'm real
And put it all out of your mind
What have I chosen to do?
What have I put you through?
I'm looking for a new way to be with you