So aged but still young
but at the same time so light
so calm
yet so burdened
concerned
excited
bothered....
If I could even
I would have done drugs every day
with a stupid whore
or why not see me lv
as only company,
abuse as if
it were my only pastime
insane
I am not an actor
but with self-destructiveness
as a cornerstone
I can't stop playing the angry game
with a rusty mora knife
in a rundown apartment
night after evening
where hope came to disappear
where I drunkenly came to forget
Every breath feels so pointless
Every word feels so empty
So pointless
So stupid
Do you even know what dedication means?
What thought draws me
toward my own destruction
Damn, it really hurts
What really happened yesterday?
Damn, I don't remember anymore...
What will happen next?
Let me escape
this bodily prison
once and for all
just let me forget
I still don't want to wake up
Love doesn't do me any good anymore
so please, it's time to yield
to what calls
I expand, grow
beyond this empty world
[English translation:]
[Envious Soreness]< br/>So outdated but still young
But still so light
So calm
Still so strained
Worried
In high spirits
Troubled....
If I had the energy
I would have drugged myself every day
With a stupid whore
Or why not myself
As only company,
Misuse as It was my only pastime. I'm no harmer. With a rusty Moraknife
In a darkened apartment
Night after night
Where hope came to disappear
Where I drunken came to forget
Every breath feels so meaningless
Every word feels so empty
So meaningless
So stupid
Do you even know what dedication means?
Every thought pulls me
Towards my own annihilation
Fuck, it really depletes me
What even happened yesterday?
Fuck, I can't remember anymore…
What is going to happen now?
Let me avoid this< br/>This prison of my body
Once in for all
Let me just forget
I don't wanna wake up yet
Love can no longer give me anything good< br/>So dear, it's time to give in
For what's calling me
I expand, grow
Beyond this empty world