Worriers advance notice

Every day's another test.
Who's it gonna be this time?
It's hard to learn to expect
when it should come as a surprise.
I can't spend my time
avoiding tougher stories.
I'm only used to just one thing.
Life comes without a warning.
This is not a joke at my expense.
It's hard enough just to speak up and say it.
Preface this by saying
disclaimer: We can't have that here.
A conversation ongoing
but you say nothing
want to disappear
Apologies too often.
So much for inclusion.
So much for safe here.
How you walk through the world:
it's a matter of comfort,
it's a matter of skill.
This is not a joke at my expense.
It's hard enough just to speak up and say it.
So we will bear witness.