Aviation and the War better half

I try to speak but the words won't come
and it's frightening as a loaded gun
and it's mine to keep
but it's mine to run from
and silently
some day it will catch up
and finally
it takes the better half of me
from the ones that I love
and it's sad you see
just how i've given up
happily
I betrayed all your trust
tactfully
so be mad if you must
just remember me as I once was
well half a drink
it turns into one
unraveling
of all that I've done
and I start to think
it's about time that I give up
this tragedy
of a life that don't live up
and finally
it takes the better half of me
from the ones that I love
and it's sad you see
just how I've given up
happily
I betrayed all your trust
tactfully
so be mad if you must
just remember me as I once was