R.L. Kelly familiar haunt

i hate my mind and im stuck here in it
and i dont know what ill do but ill probably quit
cuz everything that i love i turn into shit
and that makes me sad and im not really mad
i just dont understand why i am who i am
and why i dont do evrything that i can
to make myself better and be a good friend
stuck here in nothing thats my own fault and preference
being alone is nice and depressing
but really im sad cuz i know im the best of the worst
knowing what i am makes me sad and just really hurts